hi Claire. not that you need any affirmation since you already know ,but i think you’re sending a good message, i mean i can understand people going to head shrinks on their knees hoping someone can help them. but even if you happen upon the one nice and extremely idealistic individual among dozens of sociopaths, they can do nothing

with a few strange exceptions most people want to be healthy + normal but fumbling around in the brain box can only exacerbate most symptoms. nothing is known about proper reversal of trauma or neuroses. rx treatments for problems that probably do involve some chemical feedback loop are dangerous experiments and even if you're desperate enough to swallow them they typically don't treat the underlying issue, if they work at all. and the best advice shrinks can give is try to act normal and mainline sane thoughts until it becomes habitual (which you have to manage yourself because they will drip poison in your ear). also if you ever did somthing bad and tell them about it, they use threats to compel you to stay in their clutches. there’s habeas corpus but, it's hard to research specific legal situations, and even if they do something clearly out of line, can you prove it, will you go to all the trouble of hiring a lawyer to try and slap their hand? they have a surprising amt of leeway just by saying you pose a threat to yourself or others, and that's non-falsifiable, and they've already made provisions to skate around rules because they will just blatantly lie in your chart (which you're not allowed to see but you know they've written some shit bc the next person you talk to along the brain disease assembly line looks at you like you're a total head case) and everyone believes them not you bc you're crazy right, although mostly the threats are just more lying, but it's hard to tell, and when they threaten your ability to work or walk around as a free person it's pretty unnerving

you're much smarter than me and i learned this the hard way. sorry but i wish i somehow sent you a loopy ask to criticise years ago, before i let them catch me

also agree w what you've said, unless psychiatry stopped being so lucrative there are plenty who have no compunctions about making you worse. paranoia is the only sane response to their lunacy but well there's another diagnosis

it’s hard enough to find benevolence in all that and even if you do it’s just helplessness on their parts. and if you push them they’re the ones harried anyawy